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You've got mail. >> For millions of people, those three

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beautiful words were the next thing that we heard after.

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And with the early excitement around communication over the information

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superighway, it was almost a Pavlovian experience. But all good things must

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come to an end. And on September 30th, 2025, AOL shut down their dialup

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internet service for good. Truly a dark day for the thousands of customers who

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still used it. Wait, thousands of people

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in 2025 were still on dialup internet.

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Not only were, but are. Believe it or not, for many people around the world,

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Dialup is the only affordable option for exploring the worldwide web, downloading

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over 121,000 software files, and investigating their special interests.

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And according to the 2023 census, over

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150,000 households, even in the US, are

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still cruising the USA at [music] 56K.

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But what can you even do on dialup these days? Can you browse Reddit? Actually,

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probably YouTube? I doubt it. What about

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gaming? Maybe. To answer all of those questions, [music] I did something that

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>> Can you even buy 56k modems anymore? Oh,

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of course it would be start. Hard to find, made expensive. But how do we hook

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it up? We don't even have a phone line here at the office, do we? No. No, we

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did not. which is why we're at James' house, who turns out also didn't have a

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landline, nor did he even have his RJ11 jack hooked up at the panel in his

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garage. So, our new brighter wired it all up for him. And now that that's

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done, all we've got to do is disable our vastly superior connections, plug in our

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modem, and then figure out where the devil the dialup networking folder is.

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Network probably, right? Oh my god, there it is. It's right there. How have

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I never noticed it in all the years I've been using Windows 10 and 11? Now we

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just double check our phone number and our ISP provided username and password

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and then click connect. Oh, do the new

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modems not make the noise? >> You got to make the noise yourself.

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>> Now let's see how this bad boy handles some of the most popular websites on the

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worldwide web. Before you ask, by the way, yes, we have cleared our internet

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cash for the most authentic possible experience. For better or for worse, why

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don't I Google Wikipedia? Oh god, this

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is actually way worse than I expected. I thought this was going to be fine. Oh,

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it timed out. Do I Do I have an internet connection in theory?

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>> Oh god, 32 bytes. Request timed out. Did I just forget how horrible this was? I

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may have tracked down our problem. While we did disable Windows update, MS Edge

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Web View 2, whatever this is, is using anywhere from about 1 to 2 1/2 kilobytes

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per second, >> which on this beat of connection, it's a

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real problem. No. MP defender core

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service.exe. What is this? It's part of anti-malware.

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>> Dude, I don't got enough speed to download malware. I'm just trying to

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load the main Wikipedia page. We did do a lot while we were waiting for internet

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things to happen. I would leave a CD worth of MP3s to download overnight.

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Hey, no wonder the homepage took so flipping long to load. It's got all

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these pictures and stuff on it. Sick. What would a non-narcissist

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look up on Wikipedia? My page should

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theoretically be lighter. I think it only has one picture on it. Hey, there

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it goes. Wait for it. Wait for it.

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[screaming] Yeah, this is awful. And you know, as

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you would expect, the more multimedia heavy a site is, the worse it's going to

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be. As we all remember from browsing for pixelated poorer coupons back in [music]

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the day. So, Wikipedia, if we're willing to wait a little bit, actually kind of

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usable. How about ltstore.com? We're trying an alternate phone number to see

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if maybe we can get a little bit more consistency in our connection here.

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Store. Oh. Oh, >> I fixed it. I'm a genius. >> Oh, dude. Okay, we are getting more

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consistent network activity. And if we were to try to go to a site like say

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Amazon, it would only get worse, which

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kind of makes sense given that rich media is such a huge part of any major

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online retailer strategy these days with Amazon plastered with not only photos

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like ours, but even animations and

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video. This hilarious by the way, we finally got one image loaded here. the

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cover image for the screwdriver. And check this out. Whoa, the mouseover

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image for the backpack. So, it's very clear that the way that modern pages are

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designed and the way that modern browsers load the assets is just

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inherently incompatible with a dialup

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experience. Some sites are text only out of the box or have a texton version.

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video these days. Anyway, I guess I could browse. Am I the Do I

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really want to know though? Whoa, hold on. I got a favicon. Oh my god, I'm so

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bored. I'm sunk cost fallacy as on this

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right now. So much for this being text only as what is this? It's all pictures.

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one tab also goes a long way and so does turning off non-critical service while

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you're trying to browse. Looking at you, Windows update. Turning off images

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directly within Chrome is also a thing. You just go to settings, content,

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images, and click don't allow sites to show images. This was faster, actually.

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And another tech tip for dialup users is that download managers are also, it

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turns out, still a thing. These programs allow you to organize, prioritize, and

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schedule your downloads. And they'll even let you pause and resume a download

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without losing any data if you start a big one and you're not quite done and

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you want to maybe I don't know browse the internet. Finally, I mentioned

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earlier that there are textbased browsers that will display web pages as

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well text. Let's fire up links, a text

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and guey browser that only works in Linux, which we can quickly access using

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No way. You have got to be kidding me. This is

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so cool. Now we can see exactly what was taking so flipping long before. Like

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dude, it's not even trying to download anything yet. Makes it only slightly

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less infuriating. >> I didn't even think of SSL being a

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problem, but totally. Cuz that's a ton of data. >> Oh yeah. By these standards, that's a

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flip ton of data. And not just with the website that I'm connecting to. Probably

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with every tracker that it's using. >> Every tracker, every asset, every

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everything. >> Hey. Hey. Whoa. Whoa. Whoa. Hey. Wo. Can

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Can I use the site like this? Like, is this Oh, yeah. It's done. It loaded.

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something. This definitely explains why it took so freaking long with the

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images. That's how long it takes just to get the text on the page. God, you

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remember when a download would fail like at the very end?

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>> Yes. >> Oh, heartbreak. Oh, it occurs to me at

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this point that while we have experienced dialup, we haven't actually

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measured it yet. Will a test site have too much imagery to load

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and it stopped even trying. This is the point where I feel like we need to

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adjust our plan a little bit because we did all the pre-esting for this using

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Chrome developer tools to throttle our connection to a 56k modem speed. What we

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didn't account for is that in the real world, a dialup internet service

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provider might not get anywhere near 56 kilobytes per second, which we found was

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a pretty regular problem. So, new plan. We're going back into the developer

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settings, and we're going to use our throttled connection for the rest of

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what we had planned today. Control shift I to access dev tools. Then you can add

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a custom network throttling profile. Apparently, the average for 56k was

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about 53 down, 48 up with anywhere from

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100 to 250 milliseconds of latency and about 1.5% packet loss. So, that's what

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we're going to be going with. Let's see how usable YouTube would be on a high

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quality 56k connection these days. Well,

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it's not great so far. Serenity now. Wo!

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Wait, this took that long and we still have images turned off? I haven't even

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tried to watch a video yet. Click. Nice.

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Not unexpected. Of course, we weren't going to be able to stream highdefinition video on a 56k

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connection. But hear me out. Hear me out. What about Oh, I thought I was

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going to be able to change it to a more early webfriendly 144p, but I don't. It

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didn't even load the player enough to give me a quality drop down. I just need

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to get past it trying to load an ad cuz there's no quality selector for the ad.

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SMART. >> WHOA, BUDDY. OH, h

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>> streaming wasn't really a thing on 56K.

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So, here's how we did it. You would load up the site for the video you wanted to

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watch. You would go make a cup of coffee, tea, cocoa, maybe have a

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sandwich, and you would come back to your computer and hope that it had

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buffered enough for you to play it. If you look really closely, you can

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actually see little chunks of video loading down here. So, I should be able

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to play like the first half a minute already.

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>> Hey, not bad. And actually, that would be pretty good quality back in the late

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'9s. Another option would be to slow down the playback speed. Really? We're

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going to suggest this? Try.5.

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>> It feels like they might as well be just

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guessing. I mean, I guess it kind of

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helps with buffering, but I assume that's what I would sound

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like drunk. As for sites like Netflix, forget about it. Their advertised

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minimum is 3 megabit per second. 3 megabit pers is a whopping 50 times the

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speed of our humble 56k modem. Gaming, it's going to be a whole other nightmare

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of an experience. But before we get to that, why does this even still exist?

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tin, 56,000 bits or between 6,000 and

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7,000 text characters per second. And there are still use cases where that is

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still more than enough. Some digital signage or vending machines or credit

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card terminals do still function perfectly well on dialup. It can also be

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used as a backup for older control systems that are difficult to upgrade or

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maybe even as a tertiary connection for critical business needs. [music] In

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fact, until 2009, the operators of America's nuclear power plants were

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using dialup for their monitoring systems until the Nuclear Regulatory

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Commission asked them to, hey, maybe modernize, which was probably a good

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call, pun intended. As for why individuals are using it, well, mostly

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it's because they don't have a choice. And in a world where the internet can

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contribute so much to education and economic prosperity, that's a pretty sad

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thing. In many developing countries, the funding for high-speed infrastructure

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simply doesn't exist due to poverty or corruption. And [music] in America

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specifically, what happened was the major ISPs took billions of dollars from

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the government for a high-speed buildout, then just never finished it.

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With all that said, for some folks, and this is going to blow your mind, they

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just aren't that online and can't justify any extra cost for something

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that they simply don't care about beyond basic text communication and email. But

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I can't relate to that. Pretty much the first thing I wanted to do on the

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internet was game. Can we do it? Oh god,

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it wants a Steam update. [laughter]

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Okay. Yeah, play anyway for the second time. This is kind of remarkable. I I

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thought the game would at least launch and then have trouble connecting to the

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server, but maybe it's that if you can't download all the latest cosmetics,

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modern live service games don't even want you. Actually, no. Realistically,

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it's probably not that they hate poor people. Connection manipulation, which

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can look very similar to a poor connection like ours, can be a way of

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cheating. And even when it isn't, it can significantly degrade the gaming

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experience for everyone else in the server. Why don't we give something else

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a shot? [music] There are a few classic games that apparently do work and are

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still actively maintained, like Vendetta Online. It's a space combat game that's

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been running continuously since 2002 and was designed to be played with 200

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milliseconds of latency. While this painstakingly loads, [music] an even

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older game launched in 1997 that still works with dialup is Ultima Online. This

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fantasy MMO RPG still has thousands of gamers playing it to this day. I don't

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feel super compelled to join them at the moment, but I'm really glad that they're

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having fun. >> We must have been way more patient back in the day.

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>> We must have been so patient, dude. [music] Like my ADD is like out of

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control now. I can't go like 30 seconds without like grabbing my phone or like

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answering an email. What did I do? I snacked a lot more cuz I was a teenage

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boy. >> That's probably what it was.

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>> Oh, I don't know if this is loading anymore.

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Oh, man. Okay. All right. So, I'm in the world now. How do I tell if anything is

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actually working right now? How do I tell if anything online is happening?

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Does anybody know? anyone beer. What's

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happening? Am I Am I shooting it? Is it

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Is this doing anything?

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All right. So, what are the alternatives then for folks stuck without their AOL

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lifeline to the internet? Cellular broadband is one. If you happen to have

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good cell service, but [music] then don't have good land-based internet.

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Starlink is relatively high speed and low latency if you can afford it and you

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don't mind playing Diablo I with definitely the best player of all time.

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And there are also some other satellite-based services that are

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starting to come online. But beyond that, the best bet might actually be, as

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much as it pains me to say this having just used one of them, alternative

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dialup providers, which there are still a couple of like NetZero and DSL

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Extreme. By the way, guys, if you also

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want to see what it's like having such slow speeds, you can emulate it yourself

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using the Chrome development tools that we showed you before. We'll have a link

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